Sometimes I find myself to be more emotional and sensitive than I'd like to be. It's a bit crazy because there's always a war of words going on in my mind.

I miss everything about the real world. I miss engaging in intellectual conversations with people, talking about the things that matter; it's been a while since my mind's been stimulated / challenged.

The army feels like a separate world of its own, detached from the true reality. Perhaps for some, they relish this kind of escapism because of their own personal circumstances. But I'd be lying if I said I didn't crave the everyday sights of what used to be my normal routine.

I miss my routine of going to work every day, and then either going to the gym after work, meet up with my friends or going home to study Japanese or practice music. It felt like such a productive routine (and Capricorns love routine and hate change).

I miss my worry-free Sundays when despite knowing I have work the next day, it's okay because I would still look forward to going to work.

I miss being around people who know that everything we do shouldn't be about upholding one's pride because we all know that is stupid, but rather, centred around doing things that matter to the bigger picture.

I miss a world where titles don't matter (so much).

Most importantly, I miss spending time with the people who matter in my life. Time is seriously, ridiculously limited.

I can drink 7 cups of positivi-tea every day but at the end of the day, deep inside, we're all fighting internal wars nobody else can see. It's just a matter of whether you want to show it or not.

楽しいそうに笑って 誰でもロンリー
Even if they all laugh so joyously, everyone’s lonely

It's not exactly the most positive post I can write when the year has just started, but though I know that this phase will pass too, when you can't dealz, you can't dealz. I know things will get better eventually.

Here's my basic bitch 2015-in-review post

I've said it before and I'll say it again that 2015 has been one of the best years I've been in and WOOO! It feels good to be alive!!

Here's some nasty ass shit I've done over the past year:

Ended my dream internship at 8 DAYS magazine which was soooo much fun. Prior to me, there had been no male and/or polytechnic interns there for many years and I'm glad I didn't disappoint. Thanks to my good kaypoh skills I also found out that the current intern there now is also a guy from NP's MCM!

Includes token ang moh couple

Went on our graduation trip to Krabi / Thailand where we got drunk, krunk, and landed ourselves in strip clubs, booby-and-pussy-grabbing and all.

Graduated with a Diploma with Merit in NP's Mass Communication! Wooo!

Began my foray in the advertising / social media industry with Havas media which brought me amazing opportunities and experiences – including an all-expenses-paid trip to a private island.

Caught Katy Perry and the holy trinity of J-Pop live (ayumi hamasaki, Koda Kumi and Namie Amuro)

Got my JLPT N3 certification after failing that shit 6 months before

Went on my first solo trip to Osaka, which I have yet to blog about, where I officially became an #onsenadvocate and a #nudityadvocate there

And lastly, enlisted into the army, where everything is pretty much going to go downhill from here.

I may have made some mistakes, but there ain't no ragrets. 2016 is going to be a hell of a shit year, but I'm not going to slow down and I'd be damned if I don't get my JLPT N2 tbh.

I'm even gonna be celebrating my 21st birthday in a jungle in Tekong lol! Not to mention the weekend before that is burnt as well, so I'll probably just forget I even have a birthday. :(

Am also on the lookout for affordable drum teachers in the West so if anybody reading this has a lobang it'd be greatly appreciated~~